so yes i didnt go skul today.
kinda tired.
actually it was a last min decision.
dat devil in my head just keeps saying
"no!! dunt go to skul!!"

n yes i didnt go to skul.
silly me fer following dat devilish voice.
n yes i got myself into trouble.
but i HAVE convinced sum ppl dat i did go to skul.
Told dem I turn up late lahh.
which was y my BLUR teacher didnt noe if I was in skul or not.
n i have to call my form teacher telling him dat i was @ hm.
N dat I was tired.
which was y i didnt go to skul.
BlaBlaBla.

hmm.
i will have to DEAL wid my parents next.
coz' I KNOW dey'll be asking lotsa quest ltr on.
i DO NOT know wad to say ltr.
but aniwayzz..
bad news aside.

I know how EDAY looks lyk.
n i must say he's quite ok-looking.
Wan's been a bit of an arse.
He's been controlling me as if I'm his gf.
which really pisses me off.
but he's been doin' other things dat impresses me lately.
so yarrs.
im nt sure if he pisses me off or not.

for me,
im not sure abt myself.
ive been changing alot lately.
ive not been attending skul regularly.
ive not been studying.
im becuming lazier.
N im just not doin anithing.

I really want da old me back.
I want me to be hard-werking.
i want me to attend skul regularly.
i want me to study.

I seriously do not know wad to do larr.
frm dat plain-old me.
ive suddenly evolved to this rebellious-lazy girl.

I wanna be me back..
I hate lying..
I hate feeling guity..
I hate my life..
I wish I cud turn back tym.
N change wadever dat needs to b changed.

Prep exam is in 2 wks tym.
n I have gt abt 6 subs to study..
but i still have not start.
~shoot me plzzzz!!!~

another issue dat i wud lyk to raise is da fact dat I M LOW ON CASH!!!
i hate being low on cash.
to make matter worse,
i spend most of my money on FOOD!!!
lyk wth!!!
im supposed to be on a diet n yet i still eat n eat..
haiz.
ohk wadver.
i cant possibly get back da money or vomit out da food.

NDP is cuming.
yet i do not know wad i will do.
Father is goin to KL.
N he didnt tell his children!!!
i didnt noe ok.
until my aunt told me just now.
but aniwayzz.
i do prefer him gone.
hehe.

Farina has "sound" me to go drinking on NDE.
i was quite shocked.
ferstly, i AM nt CLOSE to her.
yet she wants me to go drinking wid her.
DRINKING!!!
im nt shocked if it's goin out.
but DRINKING!!

ahaha.
abit of exaggerating dere.
but aniwayzz.
i have agreed..
ahaha.
i know dat sum ppl wud prob be calling me
and wud prob b shouting @ me once he/she read dis entry.
khakhakha..

but yes..
plz.plz.plz.
let me have a sip.
hehe.
im just so stressed ryt now.
n drinking sounds lyk a gd idea to leave it all.

i promise i wud nt touch any alchoholic drinks afta dis.
n wud concentrate on my studies..
hehe.