so prelims have started.
m done wid eng p1& p2.
mt p1.
sosial studies.
prac exam.
n maths p1.

hehs.
my journey is still long.
but i am proud dat i have started revision.
but nt fer all subs tho.

oh yarr.
im 16 today.
dah panjang besar saya ni..
muke pon dh semakkin tk tau malu.
aha.

a few advance bdae wishes.
n bdae wishes + prezzies + money today.
but da best are frm my teachers.
dey gave me exam pprs as a bdae gift.
hehs.

expected wan to treat me well today.
but he did not.
well, fought wid him yesterday.
he was lyk
"wad present do you want tomoro?"
and he didnot say it in a nice manner
which he sud.
since im da bdae gerl.
so today was lyk da continuation of yesterday's fite.

i mean i dunt really expect a present frm him.
i dunt even noe wad i want.
i mean i noe wad i want but it's nt as if he can afford it.
and certain things just feels better when u buy it using ur own money.
n all i want frm him is 4 him to remember my bdae.
which he sort of did.
n just gave me a nice bdae wish
which a loving bf wud usually do.
i dunt expect much do it.
n he cant even do such a simple task.

sumtyms i just wonder to myself.
why da hell did i even try so hard to work dis relaintionship.
i mean.
will this relaintionship ever go dat far.
so y da hell do i even bother??
but it is experience..
and yes i still love him

i dont want to b lyk sum ppl.
whu just cudnt let go of deir relaintionship
not bcoz' dey still love da other party
but feels dat dey've just put in so much effort n time in da relaintionship and letting go
means dey've wasted part of deir lives bcoz' of da relain.
n sud just continue in da relaintionship.
but really,
wud u rather be wid sum1 whom u dunt love and can never love again.
and whu u will prob hate fer ur whole lives??
*and dis is prob very dangerous coz' u might prob kill dat person and chop him/her up into pieces.. hehs..
lyk dose farking idiots whu unfortunately have nuthing better to do but chop ppl up..

i mean think fer ur future and not on ur past.
i mean so wad uve loved fer lyk 6yrs and den u just feel dat letting go wud mean dat u've just wasted part of ur life.
but it's nt as if u can turn back tym and change stuff, u noe.
u cant.
wad im trying to say is,
if u have to let go of sumthing, just let it go.
it's prob da best solution.

ok.
im gd in giving advices arent i?
ahaha.
kk.
i shall stop here.
poa ppr tomoro.
n sum of my classmates have decided to not cum tomoro.
hehs.