a relative told me a story bout her fren.
her fren has been having lots of it.
and in da end she lost 5kgs in a month? or so.
and she's been addicted to it since.
i broke up wid Remy.
we havent been in our best times yet.
i called him yesterday n we basically broke up.
im not mad at him abt anithing.
i knew this was coming.
but i guess this was for da best.
mebbe we just clash.
i do love him. i swear i do.
but bein' with him would b tortures fer da both of us.
we're both unhappy.
so wad better way but to just break up.
in dat short time.
ive found someone new.
i called this person 2 nyts ago.
we talked.
he was damn manje.
n he told me dat he was what i was searching for.
oh wad crap~
i should start bein mean n heck-care to ppl.
rather den b kind n caring n so soft-hearted to ppl.
i dunt wanna lead ppl on.
it's just me. ive hurt a few ppl n im sorry.
but aniwayz, i cant reject ppl.
i dont know how.
so when i did meet him just now, we were oready a couple.
we fought this morning.
n we did it twice today.
it's amazing how it changes everything.
i didnt want him to leave.
i just want him by my side.
i ask him wheather he just wants me bcoz' of this.
he told me nope.
he's gonna love me till forever.
i find it hard to believe.
i tell myself dat we'll just wait n c.
in a way, if we didnt really go far.
i would like to think dat im just using him fer it.
but in a way, im just screwing myself.
ill oni ruin my own reputation n myself.
i feel guilty but i cant stop thinking abt it.