i was just thinking abt my dearest fucking ex,
sheikh ridhwan bin abd. khalid
da other day
n he suddenly called me just now.
sumtimes when i so want him to call,
he didnt.
n when im busy n do not want him to call,
he suddenly calls.
weird isnt it?
aniwayz,
da phone rang, n i answered it.
eventho, i do not have caller id,
i could recognize that horny bustard's voice anitime, aniwhere.
but i pretended to not know him n asked whu was on the line.
we played a lil guessing game before i finally gave in.
at first, he just asked me da normal
"how u doin?", "what u doin?" quests.
n i was actually fooled that all he REALLY wanted was to talk.
but after 10 mins of talking he asks me
wheather i wanted TO DO it.
i was hopping mad lahh.
he called me just because he wanted phone sex!!!!
wad? m i his fucking phone sex slave??
if i could, i would so want to kill him
No, i think i should just cut off his bloody penis larr.
dat shud do much damage.
but aniwayz, i told him dat i didnt want to do it
coz' i was just so bloody tired.
when in actual fact, i just cant be bothered by his horny-ness laa.
n also i was angry fer da fact dat he actually called me because of dat.
but it got even sicker when he wants me to hear him MOAN.
ouhk, so there i was lying on my bed
n was abt to count my debts
when suddenly this irritating horny fucker aka 'da ex bf'
called n asked me to hear him moan??
well, since it was such a loooong time since i last heard him moan on da phone,
i decided to just go along wid it.
n besides i wanted to record it.
so dat maybe i can prob post it on the web or let my gfs listen to it.
aniwayz, after what seemed like an hr,
someone did called home.
this person was another irritating bugger.
he/she called but put it down da minute i answered it.
but i pretended dat sumone was on the line just to pissed my ex.
i talked to that imaginary person, or rather imaginary guy.
asking wheather he wants to come over my hse tomorrow.
haha. we or rather i had an imaginary phonecall.
i talked abt setting da time,date n place abt the so-called sex
dat im abt to have wid dat imaginary guy.
the thought of making him wait n letting him hear all da details
just excites me.
after i felt satisfied, i put down the phone
n continued my conversation wid my less-horny ex bf.
sure enough, my "caring, loving ex bf whu still cant forget abt me"
asked me whu i was talking to.
here was my chance to be cold n revengeful to him.
i told him dat it was none of his concern.
n even if i was fucking ard, he sudnt care n sudnt bother,
coz' im not his fucking gf animore.
well, dat got his horny mood.
he wanted to argue.
n before he cud even defend himself or wadever he was abt to talk,
i put down the fucking phone.
HAH! dat oughtta show him whu's boss now.
aniwayz, at least now i know he still fucking cares.
well, it's too late now isnt it?
i wanted you to come back to me.
i wanted you to take back those dreadful werds.
i gave you time to think.
i gave you the space you need.
i did anithing n everything to just make you change your mind.
but it didnt werk did it?
you just didnt wanna care?
you just didnt fucking care?
well, i loved you once.
n i will simply not make the mistake of loving u again.
fer ur info,
after u left me,
my life has definitely turn topsy-turvy.
i used to be a saver but now im a spender.
i used to be a creditor but now im a debtor.
i used to be happy, well once upon a time i wasnt.
but now, im contented wid life
n im back to bein happy again.
ive gotten control over my life.
but i still have debts to pay n other things dat i have yet to settle.
but fer sure, i want u to get things straight.
i dont need u no more.
i dont crave fer u no more.
ive gotten over u, get it?
n im so happy dat i did.
however, wadever we had was real n true.
i'd lie if i say i didnt enjoy the moments i had wid u.
i'd lie if i say i told u dat i dont remember the times i had wid u.
u were my past n u did help me grow.
wheather it was during the relationship or after the relationship,
u did help me grow. dat i cant deny.
u will always have a place in my heart n in my memory.
sumwhere tucked deep inside.
fer wad's it worth, i still want u as a fren.
da onli prob is, do u want us to b frens or not?
i leave the decision to u.
gosh. this feels like a DIANA(sygkuzz) entry.
haha. seriously..
but aniwayz, da last 3 paragraphs are not directed to you readers laa.
i guess when u're reading it, u cud have sensed it lahh.