bdae was 2 days ago.
but, i kinda felt disappointed with everything.
well, almost everything.
people that i expected to remember, didnt remember.
people that i expected not to remember, did remember.
the morning turned out rather quiet.
well, the night before, i had calls frm a few guy frens of mine,
wishing me happy bdae.
the only girlfrens that wished me happy bdae were Ilah, Nurb, Fatin&fren and Cha.
the rest?
it's either they cant be bothered or they didnt even know.
just so u know, there were more of my guyfrens wishing me happy bdae,
than my girlfrens.
i never used to mind.
to me, bdae-s r just normal days which happens to be a day that u were born
& is the day that u grow older by a year.
which means, you gettin old& you're abt to die soon.
haha.
but, somehow, this year, i expected my girlfrens to be more knowing rather than my guyfrens.
BUT, sadly, it turns out the other way ard.
which was kinda a disappointment to me.
~oh wells.
family was nice.
mom,dad&sis bought me Brit's perfume curious.
got a msg frm Mom&Dad each.
Dad went the extra mile by calling me & singing me a bdae song.
Bro treat-ed me to a movie, which was so unexpected.
the older he gets, the more mature&sweet he is.
Sis wished me happy bdae, and well, i love her so much.
Kak Ina bought me a bdae kek, which was so sweet of her.
we gonna have dinner somewhere soon.
i cant wait fer that dinner to come.
~yeys.
Afiq'a gonna give me a bdae treat.
Lunch&Dinner + cake.
im gonna spend tomoro(Sat) with Chucky.
Fatriz gonna treat me to a movie n we gonna go mkn ltrs.
im goin' m.o.s ltr due to the special bdae package that ive got.
ouhk, so im gonna go with Fatriz&fren(maybe), Nita&fren, Sara and i still dont know whu else.
ive can bring in 8 frens but i still dont know whu else wud want to come.
i so want to bring Shahirah, but that bitch didnt wanna come.
im just so uber angry at her fer not wanting to come along.
in the past, she always wanted to follow me go clubbin'.
and today, when it's the perfect opportunity fer her to go,
u see, we dont have to buy drinks coz' it's provided.
so, it's absofuckingly f.o.c,
she doesnt wanna go.
maybe, it's due to the fight that we've had earlier on.
BUT still, y cant she just let go of it?
ive forgiven her and ive still considered her as MY bestfren.
and ive even given her,
nonono, RESERVE her a place in one of my friend's list.
and yet she turned me down flatly.
i mean like real bitchy-ly.
there wasnt any ohsorryicantcomecoz'of..., or ohgereknyerbuticantcome...
it was a flat, taknakuh.
how muthafuckingly uninterested&unapologetic&unemotional&unbothered can u be lahh!!!
it's ur best fren's bdae celebration.
and in a way, this party is her way of saying sorry to u to wadever she's said or done to u in the past.
and this party is her way of saying i still want u as my best fren
& i want the both of us to forget abt the fight and move on.
but all u can afford to say was taknakuh.
like hello, i expected a reason after ur taknakuh k, but y wasnt dere any
wad the fuck do u want her to do?
meet u, beg fer urforgiveness & hope that u'll forgive her?
or do u want us to settle it like normal adults
as in meet, talk a lil, express our feelings then cry
and everything wud be settled and wud be the same again?
~shessh. i dont get some ppl la.
im gonna drink,go crazzie with my frens ltr.
im so gonna enjoy the night&try to forget my probs.
fuck, i hate my life now.