i've been in this situation one too many times.
relationships that pathetically only last less than a month or so.
blogging abt being tired to be in another relationship,
but i always ended up in a relationship sumhow.
it's funny,
i dont even know how i got involved in this relationship.
i mean, i knew how i knew him.
BUT, i didnt know how it lead to a relationship,
rather than then just becoming frens¬hing more than that.
i cant act as if i dont care abt u.
i cant act as if i dont care that u dont msg or call me as often like before.
u used to give me many msg-es&calls.
i cant act as if im happy that i dont have an irritating, possesive bf.
u used to be so possesive&irritating.
i cant act as if im not bothered by the attitude that u're giving me now.
i try to ensure myself that HOPEFULLY it'll last.
i try to ensure myself that u're not like the rest.
i try to ensure myself that my heart wont be broken up again.
i try to ensure myself that IT will work.
sometimes, hopes are just what i have.
i wanna tell u everything.
i wanna tell u my lifestory.
BUT, if we were to last fer only a week or so,
it isnt worth it to tell my whole 17 yrs of my life to you, is it?
tell me what i sud do now?
do u want me to make the first step?
do u want me to initiate the break-up?
coz' if that's wad u want, ill give it to u.
perhaps that's wad i want right now.
u're hurting me more by ignoring&avoiding me.
if u want to quit, tell me.
at least i can move on and not have that HOPE animore.
& fer wad it's worth, we can still be friends.