Hari Raya this year has been rather uncelebrative.
i dont know if uncelebrative is a word on it's own.
but what i really mean is that,
I DONT FEEL THE HARI RAYA SPIRIT.
maybe it's due to the fact that hari raya this yr came at a rather wrong timing.
some in the middle of handing up their assignments like me&Tino.
some in the middle of exams like my sis, who's in p. sch.
but i guess, most sec sch students are done with their exams and are gettin' ready fer holis,
except fer o lvl students, that is.
oh wells~
SLAMAT HARI RAYA EVERYONE. & Maaf Zahir&Batin.
im feeling rather moody/stoned/depressed now.
assignments not done yet.
im still unsure abt my relationship with Mimi.
oh, i went his plce the other day and ive met his mom.
& sort of met hisbro&sis.
oh, and also his fren.
does he treat me as a fren or something more?
he still regards me as a fren to his frens&family.
however, i just wished that he'll acknowledge me as someone more than just a fren.
we cant just be going on this way.
eventhough, ive received attention&affection from him.
but at times, i want more.
i dont feel secure knowing that he's not mine yet.
does he really love me?
or is he just using me for something else?
i just have to stop thinking abt all of these probs.
the more i think abt it, the more depressed i get.
Monday, i need to settle a few things.
i need to get back my stuffs.
and also buy a few things.
p.s:
i need a freaking job ppl!