there are so many things i have to take into consideration.
a part of me, wants to hold on to this opportunity.
but another part of me wants to just let go of this opportunity
& just hold on to something temporary.
she has made it clear about what she wants me to do.
but everything in between is entirely up to me.
i dont want to disappoint her, i know i wont.
everything is catching up to me one by one.
i have to start clearing the paths that i have obstructed.
start having solutions to the problems instead of just leaving them unsolved.
my lecturer once told me that no matter how much we try to run from the problems we have.
it'll always come back hitting you up in the face one way or another.
i have to stop acting like im wonderwoman.
and really think about my strengths and weaknesses.
one of which is that i can only concentrate on one major thing at a time.
ive learnt that the hard way.
therefore, there really is no point in me trying to convince myself that im capable of doing so many things in such a short period of time.
but what will happen when the time comes?
im seriously afraid of falling.