i was reading this book, "he's just not into you".
and i tried to look at my relationship with him.
i guess it's time to stop giving him excuses
& just to really start thinking.
it's been 1 1/2 weeks and still no news from him.
if he really wanted me as much as i wanted him,
he would have forgiven me readily and we would have moved on.
BUT he didnt, which means that i really didnt mean that much to him.
it's common sense, if you love or adore someone so much,
you cannot think straight!
he/she is all that you can think about.
he/she is in your mind all the time.
i mean im not trying to make myself or anione in this situation depress or anithing.
BUT, i have to stop giving him excuses just to make myself feel good(?indirectly)
and keep blaming myself for everything.
he told me about her.
and he said that even though she hurt him countlessly,
he still did try to get back with her but got hurt AGAIN.
and when it comes to me,
he just let go despite me apologizing relentlessly.
everyday i gave him at least 1 apology msg hoping that he'll at the very least forgive me.
i didnt mind if he didnt want us back together.
but i just wanted him to msg me back.
and even that was too much to ask for.
i just wanted one stupid msg.
i didnt get that.
and even when i was with him,
he didnt work hard into the relationship.
if he was into me, he would have make the effort in chasing me at least.
for goodness sake, im a girl.
itsn't it supposed to be guys chasing after girls and not the other way round?
so, my point is, let them do the chasing and not us.